Read my Book Writing Project (BWP) update 7. How I was stopped from doing something I loved - writing.
Published by Nigel - 15/10/2018
|Chapter||Word Count||Date Started||Date Finished||Time Taken|
|One||3066||5/7/2010||9/3/2011||8 Months 4 Days|
|Thirteen||4097||17/8/2011||30/1/2012||5 Months 13 Days|
|Fifteen||2377||10/2/2012||19/5/2012||3 Months 9 Days|
|Seventeen||4697||18/10/2012||13/10/2018||5 Years 360 Days|
After almost 6 years of not writing - but wanting to write - I thought F#CK, I need to sort this out. That decision to confront or face up to this situation was the first step. After that decision to do something about it I was able to do the next step.
Now that I was willing to do something about my problem of not writing, I needed to find out what the ACTUAL problem was. What was actually stopping me? It wasn't like my writing pen was broken or my laptop had run out of battery power; it was more than that!In order to find the actual problem I started to look into my past, to the area when the problem first began. This was a search and discovery phase that produced lots of reactions and false reasons why I quit writing my book. I wrote everything down on paper that came to mind – however stupid it seemed.Eventually the REAL reason came to light – FEAR OF SUCCESS. BAM! That was it. I couldn’t handle being famous or successful. I couldn’t handle being in the limelight, the focus of public attention.
Knowing what my actual problem was I could then do something about it. To help me get over my fear of being successful as a writer I simply forced myself to start writing again and put myself out there.I knew that writing my book was what caused this mental-reaction-problem, so in order to deal with it I communicated with the problem, by continuing to write my book. This worked!It wasn’t easy as this produced some major mental reactions, but in time, by continuing to do the thing that was causing the mental reactions in the first place – writing – helped me to get rid of my fear, or at least reduce it.Another action I did to help me deal with my problem, and one that I’m still doing, is to get myself out there, to expose myself as an author – or at least a new writer.I am pushing myself, forcing myself, to meet authors and writers online. I’m forcing myself out of my shell – whether or not I like it.If I want to become a writer and be successful at it, I know that a part of being successful is lots of public attention. You can’t really have one without the other.